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something...something's there...but im not sure of what it is yet...
I want it, I need it, I can feel it all around me, but still it remains just barely out of my reach.......
I don't quite know where I am anymore or where I am going. I feel like
I'm floating...in space...in a deep black void where nothing is real
and your mind loses touch with the worldly things...
here, you just are. there's no why, how, or what...there's no meaning
to the puzzle, no answers to questions. everything just is. simple.
but i don't like it here. I prefer the world, with all of its mystery
and unexplained phenomenon. all of its pleasures and its pains. it
captivates me. it excites and challenges me..
there, i was more than just a girl. i was a queen, a mirror of perfection, I was on top of the world!
here, i am losing sight of who I am...all I really know is who I was -
who I want to be. I'm losing myself again.
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how pathetic is it that i sit here and wait for life to happen to me???
I wait and wait...and wait...hoping for a resolution that is never
going to come.
unless i make it come.
but I'm afraid...the world is my playground, and I'm afraid..
Why is that? Why am I afraid to be? WHO am I afraid to be?
Why can't I just do this already? Where has my strength and independence gone?
What am I really afraid of?
the world? or MYSELF?
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I'm thru with guys, they ALL tell lies, they break my heart and make me cry........
I'm sick of all of these guys who are so
full of themselves trying to be a part of my life. Why do I attract all
of the losers. No guys care about me or ever have, they just like to play me - it's
"fun" to them. So I'm sick of it. I'm putting up my "wall" and keeping
it up. It's unbreakable, unpassable, NOTHING will bring it down. That's
it - pure and simple.
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Don't tell anyone, but i think I'm going to give guys a chance again, just not certain guys...
It's just that I was thinking about it today and I saw this one guy (i don't like him) and i thought, hmm, he's really sweet and he'd probably make a good boyfriend-so why should i
miss out on that?!?!
And don't tell anyone this either, but i'm almost craving a relationship. Another chance to care about someone seeing as how i messed up all of the others. I think it would be nice to feel like I belong to someone again. And what's funny about that is my independent nature-i don't like to be owned, but this stuff is different. It feels good, not to be "property", but to feel like you have a place. It's nice. I miss it.
So, yeah, I'm not skipping out, but I'm not gonna go easy
either. I have to really know a guy before I can date him now,
otherwise it'll turn out like all the others, and I don't think I can
take another hb like those... I'm gonna be more careful with my decisions.
that's all for now. <3 y'all.
SMON
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<3 ya!
SM
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